Have you ever fallen in love? Yeah, i'm still in love, but that fucking son of a bitch bastard is a dick face.

Almost one year.
For fuck's sake.

Is it possible to love and hate someone at the same time?
Probably not.
Maybe...

He might be reading this.
But i don't care.

Cuz everything we had, is no longer there.
I was blinded, because of you.


It's so hard for me to share my feelings with people now.
You know, being there for my friends is actually an escape route from my unhappiness.
It makes me feel good. And happy [:
Easy way out, y/y?
I've been focusing so much on making them feel happy[a huge distraction y'know?], my problems that circles around me well.. disappears. Period.
And then after that it tries to pops right in front of me again and drives me real hard to the ground.

I didn't know i was that good at hiding my real emotions [:

Other exits : ice-skating, gigs, animals.

I took an extra long walk around the estate trying to clear my mind,
as well as pondering and thinking about.. everything.

I know.
I'm feeling contrite about certain events.
The past, not the present, just so you know.

And i'm not up for any jokish teasing stuff right now.
I'm not in a perky mood.

Urgh stupid gibberish nonsense.
Might be deleting this anyway.